I try not to make as many entries when the content is likely to be of a depressive nature.

 Even though I'm finding every aspect of my life, at the present time, going in a bad direction I feel pretty good tonight. Maybe because of taking a five day vacation which has been rather enjoyable. My father has been in a hospice facility for the last ten days and I realize he will not return home. This is saddening but right now I'm thankful for these few extra weeks he remained alive. It will be shocking when I learn that he has passed. This I know even though it is expected at any time. I have found the slow dying process of many cancer patients to help with the grieving process more so than many of the rapidly fatal diseases. Part of me dreads returning to work tomorrow.

I spent the evening in the country sitting on the porch with my mother after visiting my dad. I know it was difficult for her to verbalize certain unavoidable topics related to my father's imminent passing. I've always dreaded the thought of having to step in and try taking over certain matters but I knew the day would eventually come. I must face the fact that though I am confident in my clinical skills as a psychiatrist, I have been less than successful in developing all of the necessary business skills to thrive in the world of private practice. I know it will be quite a challenge dealing with managing an estate settlement.

To change the subject, I saw Evan Almighty at the movies yesterday. For a comedy flick I thought it embodied a deep message. I found it to be entertaining and a good family flick. To really appreciate this sequel it's important to have seen the initial Bruce Almighty with Jim Carey and Jennifer Anniston which was more of a love story. Evan Almighty involves the second coming of Noah's Ark with Noah being an extremely reluctant self consumed Congressman who won his campaign on the theme of changing the world.

Once again the role of God is portrayed by veteran actor Morgan Freeman. My favorite parts involved him enlightening certain characters that our prayers are not answered by us receiving literally what we ask for but by opportunities that allow us to experience that which we seek or create it ourselves. The three sons of Steve Carell's Noah found themselves liking the so called crazy behaving Ark building dad much better than the workaholic congressman dad who never spent enough time with them and rarely kept his promises to do things with them due to work obligations. His wife found herself finally happy when she stopped judging him and decided to support him fully, even if there was a chance he could be nuts. The secret to changing the world was revealed by God to be the ARK. Acts of Random Kindness performed one person at a time.

I must honestly admit that I went to the theater to see Michael Moore's Sicko but since it wasn't playing Evan Almighty was my second choice. I have no regrets since I found it to be thoroughly entertaining and worth the ticket price.